Fanfiction: Glee

Så... jag fick en liten lust att skriva en Glee fanfic igår. Så, tänkte att jag kunde kolla vad mina favorit mugglisar tycker om den? Än så länge har den inget namn... hehe, och den är på engelska. Aja, ni som är intresserade kanske kan kolla in den. Vet att den är lite lång och så.
VARNING FÖR SPOILERS (säsong 3).



The train just kept on going, it didn’t stop, it wouldn’t stop (not for him anyway), and he knew it. The train picked up in speed and rushed away towards east. And here he was. Sitting on his knees, tears in his eyes, and no idea what to do. He never left the rain with his eyes; he just kept on watching it. Even when it was out of sight he kept his eyes at the spot where he’d last seen it. Did he do the right thing? Is he out of his mind for doing this? Oh my God, he just made the biggest mistake of his life. What is he going to do with his life now? How in hell could he do what he just did? And how in earth can he now just sit there on the platform, regretting everything he’d done the last 30 minutes, only caring about himself. He didn’t hear anything; the only thing going through his mind was her words of trying to understand, her sobs. And the only picture showing up in his brain was her beautiful face, tears streaming down, tears he had caused.
It wasn’t until a hand came to his shoulders and his stepbrothers calling for him that he, almost, snapped out of the thoughts. For the first time since the rain had start moving he turned his head and looked at the one person that may be able to make him feel better. Even though he now had looked away from where the train had been he didn’t stand, his body didn’t want to get up, or do anything for that matter.
Kurt tried his best to make him stand and get him to his friends, but Finn refused. Are you surprised? He just left the love of his life. And no, he hadn’t just set her free as he had convinced himself the last few days, he may have put her on a train to fulfill her dreams, but he did leave her all alone in the big city. What if something happened to her? He had promised her to never leave her. On the other hand he had promised her junior year that he would never break up with her, and there he had been the jerk and done just that. Maybe that’s the kind of person he was. He made promises to the people he loved and then just broke them off. When he started thinking about it he realized he’d done it to several people, not only to Rachel. He’d promise Quinn to support her and be there for her, now that didn’t happen. It did turn out that the child wasn’t his as she had told him but he had made a promise… and then broke it. He also promised Puck freshmen year that they would stay bros for always, never letting each other down, always be true to the other. And even though they now were best friends again (although sometimes Puck would drive him crazy) and he had, several times, let him down and not always been true to him, he can’t really say he’d always been there for him or always told him the truth.
All of a sudden, at least for Finn (not so sudden for his friends), 15 people stood around him. He didn’t look up, his eyes had turned away from Kurt down to the platform, but he saw the shoes and legs of the friends that would be there for him, that had been there for him. He felt two couples of strong arms lift him to his feet, and although his legs felt like jelly at first, he did eventually stand on his own, now one hand on his back and another on his shoulder. That’s when he finally took the very long and dept breath he needed. He turned his face upwards and look at the best support group there was. No, seriously, if there was one group of people Finn would feel comfortable sitting in a creepy looking room with telling them everything that was inside of him, this would be the group. He studied them. Mike was holding on to Tine tightly from behind while she tried to hide the millions of tears streaming down her cheeks. Brittany had her head on Santana’s shoulder and they both had that sad face on. Rory and Sugar stood behind Artie, all wearing a face of concern and sadness. Sam and Mercedes stood next to Joe and Blaine. Sam and Blaine were looking at Finn, worry in their faces. He turned his eyes to his left and met Quinn’s grey blue eyes, somehow telling him that everything was going to be okay. Still with one of his hands on Finns back Puck looked at Finn, and never through the years Finn known Puck he’d never seen that much feeling in his eyes, well maybe when everything was going on with Beth, but except for that. At last he looked to his right, now more tears in his eyes, Ms. Pillsbury’s calming eyes looking at him, in one way making him relax a bit. And then, with a strong hand on his shoulder and so much support, Mr. Shue. They locked eyes and Mr. Shue patted his back.

What the hell was he thinking? The army? Leaving her like that? “… letting you free” that had been his words when he basically told her he was leaving her. He was leaving her on their, supposedly, wedding day. What was he thinking? Making her believe that they were on their way to begin their life with each other, and then just telling her that he’s “setting her free” and going to Ford Benning, and then he just took her hand and kissed her. Not only did he do all that, he ran with the train until he couldn’t keep the speed. Why did he do all that to her? She was still crying, this had been the worst day of her life. She never let him go with her eyes until he stopped running and she could no longer see him. And that was it. That was the last time she would see him in… how long? Months? Years? Was she ever going to see him again? Hell, this was killing her. Thinking of all of this just made her cry more. Thank God no one was sitting next to her, or in front of her either for that matter. She had noticed though, how other people around her kept looking at her. They probably saw the whole thing, but none of them will understand exactly what happened. Looking at from where everyone else where, it probably looked like two teen lovers said goodbye going to continue their lives in different parts of the country. That made her think; did all her friends know exactly what happened? Just as her eyes had started to dry and she didn’t think she could cry anymore, they came again. She lost it. The thought of maybe never get to see Finn again hit her and the only thing she could do right now was to look out the window and let her tears fall.
Somehow, during the travel she fell asleep. She woke up when a hand was grapping her shoulder and carefully shaking her. She looked up to meet an elderly woman’s sweet eyes. New York was the final stop; she thanked the woman for waking her up and grabbed her pink little suitcase. Straightening out her hair and putting on her red hat she took a deep breath and walked out of the train. The moment she took her first step on the platform she felt the New York City air fill her lungs. Even though she’d been through tons of shit in the last couples of hours she was in New York. She would probably spend the whole night thinking about Finn, but for right now. She decided to take in the awesomeness of New York. When the four words hit her mind she stopped. That was exactly what she had told Finn the last time she was here. 24 hours before he risked everything and kissed her on stage. God, she missed him.
She took out her phone and was about to text her dad to tell him that she’d arrived, but she decided not to. Instead she walked out to 42 Street and took in everything New York had to offer. And then, she just walked. She didn’t really know where she was going, or where she wanted to go. After a while she realized walking on the streets of New York, not knowing where to go and carrying a suitcase, even though it was small, wasn’t the easiest thing do to. She had to admit though, even though she didn’t know where she was going or why, she did feel kind of good just walking around looking like she, at least almost, belonged. She never looked at the street signs, she didn’t look left and right or the lights when she walked over the street, she just followed to flow. Whenever she felt like turning she did, she never slowed down her steps. She turned right into a street and was faced by a street she sure knew the name of. 5th Avenue, how did she get here really? And when she took a step onto the path walk and turned left. That’s when she saw it. Just the sight almost made her cry, but now, kind of, knowing where to go, she just kept on walking. Passing shop after shop, she passed Hollister and all teen girls taking photos with the models, she took a quick glance, but there was only one for Rachel Berry, and he was far away. On another street, in another city, in another state, at least they still were in the same country, she thought. That’s when she passed the underground Apple Store on the other side of the street. She crossed the next street and walked into the green. She didn’t really pay any attention to her surroundings, which led to her almost tripping over trash a couple of times, or once almost run over a little kid. Thank God the parents weren’t like her own. If someone wasn’t careful around Rachel Berry, as a small kid or as for now, they were not going to have an easy time with her dads.
Finally she reached her, in some way, destination. Bow Bridge, Central Park. She walked on to the bridge and stood right on the spot where she’d met Finn that night he took her out for their “professional” date. Here he’d given her those beautiful flowers and then escorted her to Sardi’s. It had been a perfect night, well, until she ran away from him after he had tried to kiss her. Why did she run away really? Was it Jesse? Was it her big dreams in New York, as she’d told him? Or was it just plain fear? Either way she kind of regret it. Kind of, because the moment they shared on the stage was… well, amazing, even though it did cause them nationals. She put her hand on the reeling and moved it over the smooth stone, she thought about Finn. What was he doing right now? Where was he? And that’s when she broke down. Half walking half running off the bridge with her little pink suitcase and then just break down when she reached the green grass right next to the bridge. Just a few inches from the water, she looked at it through her tears and saw the reflection of a beautiful blue sky, the high buildings of New York surrounding the mirror of all the blue. She picked up her phone and saw that she had four missed calls, three was from her dads, who were probably worrying sick about now, the other one was from Kurt. Feeling like she would rather talk to her best gay right now, but knowing that her dads would go crazy, if they already hadn’t, she decided to call her dads first.
“Strawberry! Are you okay?” Hiram almost screamed into the phone, she could hear how Leroy was calming him down in the back ground and taking the phone away from his husband.
“I’m fine” was all she could say.
“Where are you now?” her dads voice was calm and full of love. Something she definitely needed right now. She gave her dads the information of where she was and not to long after hanging up on them they were right by her. Hiram ran over to his only daughter and hugged her hard, patting her back and trying to convince her it would all be okay. He then went aside and let Leroy take his turn. Hugging her and stroking her hair. Rachel loved both her dads to death, but there was something about her daddy’s hugs and soft words that always made her feel a little bit better, while her father’s sometimes made her more worried about him then the situation she was upset about. When it came to discussing shows and all of that, her father was sometimes the better one, if that’s how she could express herself. After a few moments she broke out of her daddy’s embrace and looked at them both. Still tears running down her cheeks, eyes red and swollen face. She hoped they had a nice hotel room somewhere where she could just relax for a few moments. But Leroy and Hiram Berry had other plans for their daughter.
Knowing their daughter very well they knew that she thought the one thing for her right now would be a hotel room she could be in for the rest of the night, but what she needed was something to get her mind of everything. They did however go back to their hotel on the 30th street, not far from Times Square and let her freshen up a bit. Then telling her they needed to go eat together made her dress up a little. They weren’t those mean parents who wanted their kids to only focus on carrier, but at this moment, doing just that would keep her mind of Finn for just tonight. After a nice dinner at Sardi’s, which she didn’t seem to appreciate as much as they would have though they went and saw a Broadway show, and not just a Broadway show. The two elder Berrys took their lovely daughter to go see Wicked. Once again they were surprised when they realized she didn’t seem as impressed by the staging as they were. What in earth had happened the last time she was in New York that made everything they would think would make her go crazy suddenly didn’t. Or was it simply the fact that she was away from someone that meant so much to her.
Half way through the first act though, she did smile. And they saw the glimmering in her eyes. They saw the hope. And between the acts, it was like they had their little girl back. Talking on and on about how amazing it was. Everything felt just like it should, until a heavier man came up to them and starred at Rachel.
“Here again I see.” He gave her a big smile, and she, after realizing who the man was returned it. Without any more thinking about the situation she turned to her dads and started talking again about how she loved the music and how amazing it is to just sit there and sing along, and how she couldn’t wait until the second act when she would be hearing both of her favorite songs. First then did she realize her dads confusion.
“Oh, well , when we were here for nationals, me and Kurt snuck in here to feel how it was being on a real Broadway stage, and that guy” she turned her head a bit towards the man “let us have the stage for 15 minutes. It was amazing and just… So amazing. Can’t believe he stills remember me though…” her dads just looked at her. Then, they smiled.
When Finn had come that night to tell them his plan they didn’t really know what to do. Yes, they didn’t want the two youngsters to get married at 18, but they still loved Finn. He’d made their girl so happy and helped her through so much. He’d been there when they didn’t know what to do. When Rachel had choked on her NYADA addition and told everyone she wanted to be left alone they had, everyone, just let her be. That night she didn’t want to talk to anyone. Around 9 pm they’d gotten a call from Finn asking how she was doing since she’d turned off her phone. That was the first moment when they realized how much this young man cared for their daughter, but what was coming in less than 24 hours made them truly understand it. The day after Rachel had just gone to school, without breakfast which had Hiram worry a lot about her, and when the two men came home from work she was locked up in her room, not wanting to talk to anyone. Not really knowing what to do, neither of them had opened the door to her room, only talking through it. But then it was 7.30, they had just finished dinner and had let Rachel know they saved some for her when she wanted it, a knock came on the door. Leroy had gone to open it, only to find Finn standing there, a firm look on his face.
“Hello Mr.Berry” how many times did he have to tell this 18-year old that he could call him by his first name? “May I come in?” Leroy had let him in, without a doubt and Finn had politely said hello to Hiram as well before he asked about Rachel. When both told him that she’d still been in her room he’d asked them if he was allowed to go and try to talk to her. They nodded but followed him up the stairs and stood waiting by the stairs to see what would happen. Finn had first knocked on the door and called her name, but when the message got clear that she didn’t want to talk to anyone, he did what no one else had. That young man just opened up the door and stormed in. The Berrys had followed him to make sure he wasn’t going to treat their angel bad, although they were pretty sure that would never happen you never know. And they were right. He didn’t, instead he lifted her up from her foster position on the bed and sat down on the bed, still carrying their daughter, and then he sat there. Holding her as tightly as possible, never letting her go. She had buried her face into his neck and he had hugged her tighter, brushing her hair. That’s when the two elder men left the two teenagers alone. Honestly they have no idea how longed he stayed, when they walked up and passed Rachel’s room to go to bed he was still sitting there on the bed holding on to their daughter giving her all the love and support she needed.
When they woke up the next day the door to their girl’s bedroom was open and they could see their lovely angel sleeping softly, her dark head on two pillows and the blanket over her. A note was set on her bedside table and Leroy could see the signing of one Finn Hudson. There was another one down in the kitchen. Thanking them for letting him come in and promised them that the moment Rachel had fallen asleep and he’s tucked her in he’d left to go home.
They really did love that kid. So when he told them how he hadn’t been accepted into the Actor’s Studio and Kurt hadn’t come into NYADA, and he made sure they knew about Rachel’s plan about staying in Lima for a year, he told them how he felt like he was in the way of Rachel’s dream. Her dream to become a star on Broadway, which he really did believe in, they both had been a little confused to where he was going. Then the tears had started to fall from the boy’s eyes across from them. Through the tears he told them how he’d found a train ticket from Lima to New York that would depart the same day that they were supposed to get married at and that the departing time would be about the same as when they needed to leave. He asked them if they could meet her up in New York and make sure she was safe. He asked for permission to be the one dropping her off and telling her all about what was going on, and pleased the two men not to tell her anything in beforehand. Hiram and Leroy had only nodded, not really knowing what else to say. They were really proud of Finn’s thoughts, but also a bit worried about the reaction from their daughter when all of this came down on her. And then, right before their daughters, soon to be ex-fiancé was about to leave Hiram asked:
“Son, what are you planning to do?” The two Berrys knew that if he would stay here their daughter would do everything in her power to change it all up so that she would stay in Lima. They watched as Finn’s face suddenly became even more serious than before, if that was even possible.
“The Army.” Was the last words he said before thanking them both with a nod and closing the door behind him.
Lights started to flicker and the bell rang. Leroy snapped out of his thoughts about Finn and how much he’d done for his daughter and joined his perfect little family as they walked back into the theatre.